i just dont know

I want to improve my stamina and be able to run at least 10km daily. I just hope that i do my best not to break the commitment.

Saw the sun rise after a long time... For the past six months I mostly wake up around noon but today just don't know why but I couldn't sleep. Though i try too hard to sleep,keep my eyes close for an hour and half.........but can't get sleep just like my mind was on the marathon of thoughts. I don't even know what was I thinking most of the time but just keep checking time in my cell. At last I got tired around 4.30. But then I started to stare at the ceiling. At beginning everything was too dark to see but my eyes got adjust to dark and I was able to see a little. As my marathon of thoughts were going noticed the darkness which was slowly disappearing and the sunshine slowly brightening the ceiling of my room

As I lost my job ,I was happy that I have many possibilities ahead of me. But after working in government sector for almost a year and taking break from the 12to8/6to2/2to10 work schedule (*it was pretty hard to work in constantly changing schedule especially when I finish evening shift and then have to go to morning shift the next day) I was enjoying every moment and also catch-up with all the movies and serials that I have sacrifice for job. When I was done with it I started catching up with all the other things that was important to me. Now when I think that my job is gone I still can't get sad for it I don't know why but I do get worried about my future. Before joining Department of Post, I was working as a Real estate broker. So I think that I can rejoin the real estate but I don't even get excited like before to do the job......,. I DON'T KNOW WHAT AM I WRITING. IF ANYBODY IS READING THEN PLEASE DON'T WASTE YOUR TIME,READ SOMETHING IMPORTANT

its been more then 2 months since i have been terminated from my job. On the day of termination 23rd December 2015 i was thinking that where am i???........ am i going to do this job for my whole life? whats my future in  this? Am i not able to do better? I was stuck there just because the salary was good and the work was no brainier so i thought i can handle multiple jobs but i was wrong. Many times the work was too much to be done in 8hr shift so we have to do OT. I didn't have problem to do OT but the rate of OT was pathetic rs.16/hr. Nobody in the department wanna do the OT but everybody was doing just because no single colleague of ours have to suffer with OT and also everybody do care that everyone should get their mails on time. On that day my duty was on Counter booking the articles. My hands were running on the keyboard but i was thinking " What am i doing?" just then i think about how my life would be if i do this job till my retirement. I saw myself sitt...